Weird, New Things

So I've been thinking of things that might be different next year...
I love change, but I'm not sure how I feel about some things.


If I get this job that is such a blessing to my family, I don't know what exactly that will mean. I need to find out some details from DG about full-time jobs at DBU.

I really hope it doesn't mean I'll have to move into an apartment. I mean, that'd be fun and all, but I would really miss the dorms. Most of my friends still want to stay in Crowley for a while, so I'm not sure who I'd room with...hmmmm. Oh well, I'll let that fall as it will. The Lord will remain faithful. I have full confidence in that

going to bed angry

So today was interesting for me. I woke up late, as per usual, hung out with my family for a while, then I got dressed and went to paint at my sister's house. My nephew is having his birthday party next weekend and they needed me to help paint a giant board to look like a baseball field. After having to figure out what exactly a baseball field looks like (though I had the gist, I wasn't sure which colors went where) I think I did a pretty decent job! Then I came home and my friend, Priscilla, came over to stay the night! She's coming to church with me in the morning! hoorah!


So now comes my time for an apology. Not sure if any of you noticed, but I made my blog private for most of the day today. That's mainly because I was called out by a dear friend. To those of you that were singled out and were potentially even hurt by my previous posts, I am truly sorry. I was hurt and in my frenzy of emotions, I just spilled over onto my blog without realizing that I could also do damage. I shouldn't have tried to fight fire with fire or to push a guilt trip onto you guys. It was not right of me and I am very sorry. I guess I was just trying to convey what I was feeling. Sigh. I do understand that there are probably many reasons as to why I wasn't called Tuesday. It just hurt. I realize it probably wasn't a move against me, but perhaps something else entirely. I don't know the reason, but I forgive you...and request to be forgiven. I should have handled myself better. I just didn't know what to do.

Dear friend, sorry for blowing up on you a little bit. You did the right thing by talking to me - especially in love.

I've been angry all week, and now I'm choosing to let it go.
Goodnight :)


How great a forest is set ablaze by such a small fire! 6 And  the tongue is a fire, a world of unrighteousness. The tongue is set among our members, staining the whole body, setting on fire the entire course of life, and set on fire by hell.  7 For every kind of beast and bird, of reptile and sea creature, can be tamed and has been tamed by mankind, 8 but no human being can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison. 9 With it we bless our Lord and Father, and with it we curse people who are made in the likeness of God. 10 From the same mouth come blessing and cursing. My brothers, these things ought not to be so. 11 Does a spring pour forth from the same opening both fresh and salt water? 12 Can a fig tree, my brothers, bear olives, or a grapevine produce figs? Neither can a salt pond yield fresh water.
James 3:5-12

take time to realize

I've come to realize that I really don't fit in with my friends in Houston.

I'm a sore thumb in their perfect world.

What the hey, I'll just write how I'm feeling.

So the other day I came home...as did all my other college friends - minus Katie.

They all got together and had a nice little party.

Guess who wasn't invited?

I promise I can't explain how hurt I was.

I thought we were close? Nope.

It's whatever.

Thank God for college.

for the record

I came home Tuesday.

I got in around 5:45pm.

Done

no more blogging for me.

no one reads this.

so I'm not going to waste my time anymore.

news report of my friend's shooting

http://cbs11tv.com/video

it's the clip called

Random Dallas Freeway Shootings Cause Concern

Listen to how she gives God the glory.

This girl is amazing!

That's my best friend, Mckenzie :)

praise the Lord she's okay!

Remember That Time My Best Friend Got Shot?

YES. I just found out my best friend, McKenzie, got shot Saturday around 1am. She's fine, but it's by the grace of God that she is alive.

She was coming home from a babysitting job around 1am and as she was getting onto an exit to come back to school, her car was shot 4 times. One bullet went into her thigh (which was save #1 because it could have hit her femoral artery) and another bullet should have gone through her head, but it somehow deflected from her windshield and went somewhere else. God was with her. She will even tell you, "it was all Jesus."

I heard and flipped.

They think it was a gang initiation.

WHOA.

Anyway, just thought I'd vent.

bye :)

WOW.

I just wanted to let you guys know how God has rocked my world today :)

So a few weeks ago my mom called me and said she didn't know how I was going to stay at DBU because we just can't pay for it anymore. That shattered me. After that day - and even before that day - I've been hunting for a job so I can help out with my tuition. Job after job, I'm either not motivated to apply, or I've been turned down.

This morning I stumbled out of bed for church, got ready, and just as I was going out the door I get this call asking if I can give 2 more girls a ride. I agree :) those 2 more girls filled my car up perfectly! (and legally)! Both of these girls are international students and both of them are sooo sweet. We go to church, come back, and just as I'm going to park one girl starts talking about how she's loved her year and a half at DBU, but after a lot of prayer she has found that God is taking her somewhere else. As a result, her job in the international center will be vacant!!! The amazing God part of all this: HER POSITION IS A TUITION REMISSION JOB. That means that whoever holds this position has reduced tuition (I think by 50%). It's the same type of position DG has! So I'm INCREDIBLY pumped up. Almost immediately after she told me, my heart started beating soo fast and I was so sure I was going to cry. I called my mom almost in tears to tell her what the Lord might be doing! Oh, SO EXCITED! Anyway, this girl, Elise, decided after some discussion that I would be perfect for this job and she is going to suggest that I get the job!!!!!!!!!

The Lord is faithful!

So if you can do something for me

( I know I ask of this a lot )

but if you can pray that His will be done in this situation that would be fantastic!

also pray that I will be okay with whatever direction He chooses for me.

I'm so excited!

Just wanted to share :)

but I am le tired!

for some reason I am so tired! Maybe it's my body freaking out because I never sleep...who knows?

I have so much to do tomorrow. Oh dear.

I don't even remember what I was going to write about.

It has been homecoming week around here. It's a little crazy, to say the least.

I've been working out lately! It has been amazing!

Anyway, that's all I have to say!

Night!

Wednesday

Today has been interesting. Actually, it has been an interesting week.

Tuesday I got to go to the Switchfoot concert for $5 by a serious work of God. It was intense how everything fell into place haha. Tickets were normally $20. Anyway, that was seriously the best concert I've ever seen! SO GOOD! Then, I got to meet and hang out with 3 of the members for a while (Jon Foreman, Tim Foreman and Jerome Fontamillas) SO COOL! They were all super nice! Tim was there the longest. I haven't gotten the picture of Jon and I yet from my friend, but I definitely got one :) Unfortunately, excitement and flashing cameras make my eyes bug out :( so I'm all bugged out in the pictures with Tim and Jon. Sad day.

Wednesday was interesting as well. I got up around 11:30, which was awesome, except I missed my luncheon that I was supposed to go to :( and then I went to Foundations and presented a rocking presentation that I did in about 3 seconds hahaha. I decided to have an Invisible Children showing on Dec 4, so I made flyers for that :)

Then I went to this thing called Coke Break, which is where DBU kids get together and snort coke...JUST KIDDING! Coke Break is a student life activity that happens every month where you get a bunch of free snacks and hang out :) It's fun, I guess. Then a bunch of us girls went to Parks Mall, but half of the mall lost power :/ so we weren't there very long. It was weird. Tonight, I worked out for about 2 hours and then I told this guy that I wasn't interested in a relationship...which sucked, cause I'm pretty sure I hurt him :( and that's never fun. I just didn't want to lead him on. Sigh. So yeah. Now I'm sleepy. I'm really dreading walking tomorrow. My legs are going to be SO sore! Yay for working out!

I'll be back in Houston on Tuesday :) and I'm giving my friend Priscilla a ride as well :) she lives in Spring and went to Klein! WOOT. So we're gonna hang out and such.

Tim Foreman. :)